Hello. My name is Amanda. I am 17 years old, currently residing in North Carolina, and use this blog to express the thoughts I cannot express anywhere else. I've been through many things in my life and have scars from them. I used to deal with self-harm, I still struggle with it, and I'm trying to stay strong. I also used to struggle with an eating disorder and my mind still processes things as if I still do. My depression still walks in step with me every day and my mind is my prison. Suicide....is still a very real possibility for me. I don't judge anyone, so feel free to ask anything. I'm always here if you need to talk. I'm lucky enough to be taken by the most amazing girl in the world, Shelby, since February 19th, 2013, and I love her with all of my heart.
I want to make you smile and I want to make you cum.
I want to hold your hand and I want to hold your hips down while you’re writhing.
I want to make your eyes light up and I want to make them roll in the back of your head.
I want to be your reason to wake up and your reason to stay in bed.
I want to kiss your wounds and I want you to leave them on my back.
I want to play with your hair while you sleep and I want to feel it between my fingers while you are on top of me.
I want to memorize the repetition of your breathing and I want to memorize the sporadics of your moaning.
I want to see the arch in your grin and I want to feel the arch in your back before you collapse.
I want to go out to dinner with you and I want to go down on you.
I want to to feel you in my heart and I want to feel you inside me.
I want to make you laugh and I want to make you scream.
I want to still be able to taste you in the morning.
I want you in every form.
The key is to keep company only with people who uplift you, whose presence calls forth your best.